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Porn experience 2013

25 Aug

The men that have walked by my side in 2013, okay okay I go for few “walks” with them but I stand, bend, lye, crawl – you name the position and I have done it in their presence……. have all admitted to watching porn.

I love porn, it can be tantalising to watch it fully clothed with an amazing lover to end up naked while acting the scenes….. Most importantly the scenes you both enjoy!

It’s all about balance, right?

What about the man who gets so engrossed with watching porn and his own wank that he can’t or finds it difficult to ejaculate with a female touching him? (Yes there are sexual difficulties that men experience without the use of porn but this post isn’t about this).

Unforgiving to me I had this experience with Mr M – in fact it was more delayed ejaculation but yet he couldn’t reach the point of no return unless he held his cock, rubbing it furiously to get the desired effect and squirting every drop upon my face. He consistently watched porn and you bet it – this was the scene he liked most to watch. I questioned many times the possibility that Mr M might have taken viagra, prolonging his hardness but I doubt it. In regards to his wanking, he got so used to his own touch and “cumming” this way he could do it no other way. His wife hadn’t touched him in years….who’s fault was it? If he was my long term partner I would have worked with him on this issue but he wasn’t, it was for the sex and the selfish goddess in me cries “I want the best”.

Then to the man, Simon who sends me links of BDSM at it’s wildest. In one scenario a female is tied up (nice and pleasant) but the man takes is holding an object that resembles a “drill” to rub over her clit. A vibrator in disguise. You are not using that on me Simon. He replied, but she really enjoyed. A. That female is not me! B. She gets paid to have wierd tools rubbed over clit! C. Shes an actress!

Then to anal. We are all different, I drink my coffee without milk and have 3 sugars (yes my teeth are pearly white and in good shape) maybe you drink yours with milk…semi, full cream (the milk?) you get my point – we are all different! Do I like anal, perhaps if a man was try to do it gently instead of prodding me full force and for me to cry out “no” – of course he won’t stop, what’s the safe word again….yes …orange, orange bloody orange. Only one man has entered me anally and for me to enjoy it – halleluia to Mr A; it was ecstasy..pure pleasure. Unlike porn, he lubed me (unfortunately they forgot this from the scene), wore a condom (yes – porn doesn’t seem to highlight the necessity of protection from diseases) and provided a rhythm that was indeed soothing and not ouch.

Do I want a threesome like the porn? No. Yes, I get it the female you watched in the porn really enjoyed the 3 cocks that filled her, she was insatiable. One man is good enough for me, just use your cock right. You want a female to join us? Been there, done it and currently wearing her picture on my t-shirt (joke!). I know you want to watch me with her but why don’t we have that cute male waiter join us and take you up the ass? I will gladly return the favour with a female then!

Feet fetish. Unbeknown to me at a work conference when the smiling stranger asked the group what their favourite body part was and my innocent reply “oh it has to be my feet” was “feeding” (he was dreaming of licking, sucking, worshipping my feet) his fetish. He signalled me out from that moment onwards and before I knew it he was revelling in the knowledge I love to have my feet massaged. Telling me how he watches porn every morning to wank about the female getting her boots and feet licked …Would you like this Lucy, have me as your submissive worshipping your feet? I never tried it before, why not and there I was before him; it felt damn good to be in the place of a dominant. Sadly, he “came” within seconds of seeing me in my underwear and stilettos. The next morning true to his he was wanking watching porn, I didn’t orgasam in his company – he thought my toe was my clit! Again the goddess within me sings “and what about me”.

I watch porn (within balance) the visual aspect is good but I wish my vagina and ass to remain intact.

I guess these married men want a whole opppps whore to fulfill their needs that the innocent wife might not be complying to.

Why am I not talking of single men? Most of the information could relate to a single man or a man you might know (not all men are the same – I have had some fantastic amazing lovers) but this is my experience of the married men that have entered (me) my world in 2013.

To the porn queen that’s within me…please go to hell.

7 Responses to “Porn experience 2013”

  1. lunarain0811 August 25, 2013 at 3:57 pm #

    I so get what you are saying here! I have experienced this phenomenon too. But I would add one more – the guy that is so conditioned to hide his porn that he can’t be honest about it. I really don’t have a problem with my man watching porn (as long as it’s not in excess, and as long as it isn’t taking the place of sex with me – lol) but it hurts when he can’t tell me he did, like its something he has to hide from me. I like to watch porn occasionally too, and especially with my partner, but I can be very open about it. For example:
    Him – “What did you do today honey?”
    Me – “Oh, cleaned the kitchen, did some writing, watched some porn, and took out the trash”
    Lol
    I can view porn as a normal human action, to relieve boredom, to get ideas, for assistance in getting off (which is a great release of tension), or just out of curiosity. But so many women are so ‘uppity’ about it, think it’s something horrible or take it too personal, or maybe transfer their feelings of guilt into anger towards their mans actions because they’re not giving them any so these guys have to watch porn for any sexual release. These men end up feeling guilty about it, and become conditioned to the fact that it’s something to hide.
    It’s sad. It’s been my experience that even when they finally find a woman who can be accepting and opened minded about it their first instinct is to lie or hide it. Even when you tell them it’s ok they still have such a hard time. I can handle the porn watching, but I can’t handle the dishonesty.
    I agree with everything you wrote, sometimes it is hard when a man becomes conditioned when watching porn – to a certain kink or forgets that those are actresses getting paid to live out someone else’s fantasy, but the biggest problem area for me when it comes to porn is how they become conditioned to breed dishonesty around it.
    I can accept a man completely, faults and all, but I can’t accept lies or hiding something because to me that, coupled with a lack of communication, is the pitfall of most relationships.
    Great post!

    • mistress4u August 28, 2013 at 7:39 pm #

      Dear Luna, I agree with you. How did I miss this point out. I haven’t had the experience you speak of recently but have done so with my husband. Who denied furiously that he had watch porn. I am wondering if you have suggested to your partner about watching it together?
      lol I love your description of your “normal” day…;)
      Thanks for the lovely comment and your view, it has been appreciated.

      • Luna August 29, 2013 at 6:42 pm #

        Oh yes, and we do. I wasn’t actually speaking of my husband when I mentioned it, more of past relationships. We did have that issue in the beginning (compliments of His ex) but once we sat down and had a good talk about how we each felt He completely understood where I was coming from, and although it was difficult for HIm at first, He worked hard at being totally honest with me. There’s still the occasional porn watching (for enjoyment or curiosity) but to be honest we’re having too much fun together for it to come up very often at all. And 9 times out of 10 it’s research to get some more ideas on things we could try! Lol (although I’m with you – no drills please!)

  2. forbiddenlove4u August 26, 2013 at 1:05 am #

    I enjoy reading your posts they are very well written and erotic. I look forward to reading more.

    • mistress4u August 28, 2013 at 7:37 pm #

      (smiles) at times I forget I am sharing this, my words lost in the space of computer; at least out of head. Erotic, when I started this blog I never thought my writing would it. On reflection it was possibly always there 😉 On a last note, I am loving your blog. x

      • forbiddenlove4u August 30, 2013 at 7:27 am #

        Thanks yours is so well written it puts me to shame. Lol 😉 I’m loving your journey its fantastic and very erotic.

  3. Lynn October 15, 2013 at 2:53 am #

    Well, this is interesting and I would agree on most all you said, not the cheating bit though. I’m sorry to say that is insecurity no matter how you want to look at it, we seek after men who belong to others because of what is missing in us, a confident secure woman will seek a man worth having and definitely one that is available, it’s easy to feel like you got something over someone or that you are special to someone who wants you because your not her and because your more than likely going to accept less. Been there done that so no judgement – just saying.

    On the porn, I totally agree, men are predictable. Porn does hurt when done in private, why because the fantasy is not being shared, if your single by all means beat it…but married, it’s purely selfishness, a man who doesn’t want to put in the work to be intimated and f….king is intimate. He would rather watch some other hot (unreal) chicks sitting on five d….ks and beat himself, why would he, because it takes less time and it quickly becomes the mistress and as you mentioned, he could only ejaculate after beating himself a certain way, PORN is the culprit, he needs more and he needs it a certain way, so how can that be good for a relationship. Oh man bummer lol I seen that in my hubby…..selfish pr…k. I don’t even know what to do about it anymore, truth be told, I used to like it together, but when I found out he was watching it behind my back, and not some times but quite often I was understanding at first then again then again and then I was like wtf is your problem dude…..Oh yea you say you would love to see me getting it, doubt it liar, men are more insecure than women….Believe if I was at home watching Big Black Mandigo and cumming to that and then when he crawled up between my legs I was toooo tired or not in the mood because I already had my turn, someone’s ego would be hurt, no different then an woman’s heart being hurt or her ego….. I was that Hoe for him, every night an every day bent over on my knees in my mouth in my hair in my eye ..I put the work in, it don’t matter how you look or how good you do it, if he’s got a problem he’s got the problem not you…..and well I’m at the point where I’m getting ready to be ghost…it hurt my self esteem because the trust eroded and now I feel vengeful. I know there are men who don’t need that fantasy over being with a real woman with real needs. I hate that he changed the experience for me, with him.

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