My name is Lucy. An innocent female on the outside, married and living in the perfect home.

To some, I am attractive…I have no doubt these men would tell you tales of the time we spent together. Others will have forgotten me.

I have never been faithful.

My first love Mr A was married and I was his mistress (and soon to be married lover) for 10 years. During my time with him I was single, then engaged and finally preparing to get married. I had many lovers but nothing or anyone touched me like Mr A. I belonged to him and he awakened my every desire of the submissive that I am. Others have spanked me, held me down, pulled my hair but there with the sweet memories of Mr A I really do belong and long for him yet…..

Mr A died 3 years ago, a fateful night when he was driving to see, his once mistress and soon to be married lover, me. The guilt, the loss was and still is above any words that could be used to describe. My life was torn and for 3 years I grieved. There were times I too wished I was dead, carrying this secret tormented me, still does. I did not have any lovers for 3 years after he died, remaining faithful to my husband. That was until last year, I started a sexual affair with a married man, Mr M, 15 years older than I. A cliché to some, perfection for me.

When I started to write this blog, the affair with Mr M was ending and I needed a way to get over him. Through the course of self-reflection and writing this blog I have recently started questioning my sexual appetite. Ending the affair with Mr M has triggered past memories of lovers and made me wonder if I am a sex addict….

I am still married, relationship intact and yet I am making preparation for the next affair…..it has now begun with Simon, an eager man wanting my expertise to teach him to be a dominant.

Here you will find my journey, the one of Lucy, the dark secret I hide from all….The Unfaithful Wife who is an addict

I hope one day to write about Mr A, it is yet too painful a memory to think about let alone write….it is painful to think of Simon being my dominant, it reminds me of Mr A.


7 Responses to “About”

  1. maemalone July 30, 2013 at 9:02 pm #

    Oh such similarities we share.. My heart goes out to you and I feel your pain.. Thank you for following me.. Stay in touch..x

    • mistress4u July 30, 2013 at 9:20 pm #

      Hello, I agree. There are many similarities. When I read your blog I thought wow….I’m excited to read and know more. Please stay in touch. At times I feel “alone” even in a full room of people, the secret can be overwhelming and the memories….cherished memories that rise with laughter and pains you that your breath and the whole you wants to forget . xx

      • maemalone July 30, 2013 at 10:18 pm #

        I think that we can never forget. I have yet to move on and I really don’t know how I will..

        I am very solitary since he passed and we used to be real party animals.

        Nothing will ever compare but maybe one day something will give…xx

  2. WordsFallFromMyEyes August 18, 2013 at 9:20 am #

    Interesting, Lucy. Funny you’ve never been faithful. To most people that’s a shame, but you’re so open! 🙂

    You intrigue me about Mr A…

  3. Professor Taboo August 19, 2013 at 5:14 pm #

    Your point-of-view mistress4u, is interesting (to say the least?) as I’ve been browsing your blog. Thank you by the way for following mine. My time is unfortunately limited at the moment, but I will return to continue my reading and perusing.

    Best wishes.

  4. severin August 22, 2013 at 10:07 am #

    I don’t think I’ve ever read an ‘About’ page that is so honest and heart-wrenching and raw and that makes me want to hold its writer tightly and tell them that everything will be all right, that they’re doing great.

    The internet is awash with virtually sent hugs. Find me one day and have some for real.

    sev x

    • mistress4u August 23, 2013 at 2:57 pm #

      Oh Severin, your kind words have reached my heart and I feel the warmth of your hug already. Honesty can be the most rawest pain of all.
      Thank you, thank you for your kind comment. I hope to find you one day until then I will continue to enjoy your blog.
      Lucy x

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